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Symbiosis of Mitosis Magic

by jenna on November 6, 2014

in Inspiration,Poetry & Song

Mitosis Magic #eyesis

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Sweetest Thangs at 30

by jenna on August 5, 2014

in Journal

1) Living with my sister.

Me and my sis (Jessica) were always together in our younger years. I lived age 2-7yrs twice to be beside my sister (5 yrs younger) watching Barney and Bananas in Pajamas.  We did eeeverything together and had lots of fun.  My buddy and me.  And then I reached puberty…  terrible teens… ‘I’m too busy to listen to you’, ‘I’m too busy to care about you’, ‘I have my own life.’  Apparently I didn’t get past that attitude until near 30. Thank God I finally did!! Forrrreeal. Me and sis are back together.  ‘We’s just like peas and carrots again.’  Yay! We are winning.  I completely forgot how awesome it is to share life with my sister love. Banana 1 and Banana 2 are back! lolz

Jessica has been coming to my yoga classes almost every day since the spring.  She has referred great clients to me.  She works hard every day and is the yin to my yang, and sometimes the yang to my yin… depends on our mood. :)   We are very different, yet complimentary in terms of our strengths and the gifts we offer the world. So, together we make a really great team.

When she was in high school she asked me how I was able to be so silly with her when she was young. She asked me how I was so playful and able to act her age, because she couldn’t see herself doing the same.  She was the baby in the house, so she didn’t live with a younger sibling. For me it was a natural role to take, to be my little sisters best friend. Now, as adults, we have matured (somewhat) and so has our relationship. Especially, the depth of appreciation and gratitude I have for her.

A few years ago, she was so frustrated with me that she sent me an email explaining how she didn’t want to be involved with my project and she didn’t understand my choices and lifestyle. She was pulling away, and my heart was broken.  I felt my whole family plus my ex-boyfriend losing faith in me.  Long story short, life got a little crazy after that. I began to slowly put myself back together, after I was completely torn down with no trace of me anywhere.

Fast forward to a moment of reflection where I objectively relived recent (past 10yrs) experiences with my sister, observing my attitude, my way of being toward her.  I demanded respect (control) because of the years I had taken care of her.  I always dwelled on the relationship we once had and wondered why she didn’t appreciate those time, or why she didn’t respect me now for those times past.   I was not being present to the current condition of our relationship and the role I was now playing as mean sister.  The past relationship doesn’t shine through the present. I am entitled to nothing.

I was shattered by the realization that I had been such a b!tch to my sister.  She is a very sensitive and delicate person and I wish to respect who she is always. I care more about having a good, positive, loving relationship with her than any silly disagreement or differences. Love Rules!

So, I acted accordingly and made a point to be extra loving, considerate, patient, compassionate with her… from now until forever.  I knew I’d have to replace the bad memories with new good ones.  Over time she would feel my love, I could regain her trust and respect, and here we are.  It worked!

Try it with a relationship you really want to heal. :)

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Pam Bok Waterfall

by jenna on July 22, 2014

in Journal,Poetry & Song

Thailand June 2014

Coffee in Love, Pai

.    I went to Pam Bok Waterfall in my final hour with the scooter I rented for 2 days from Chiang Mai.  It was my only full day in Pai. I had been to Mo Paeng Waterfall and enjoyed climbing the slippery rock. Then I stopped through the Strawberry Pai Love cafe and Coffee in Love cafe, which overlook the valley and mountains.  Finally, I made my way down a beautiful path to Pam Bok.  Near the main fall there was a modest cave. I explored, then just as I had decided my time was up (to return the scooter), it started pouring!  I was the only human there in all of that beautiful space.  I sat in the cave and watched in awe as the water fell at the water fall. I imagined how many magical moments have happened in this cave, that now gave me shelter. And I wrote….

Rain falls at the waterfall
No matter where I am, I am with
No matter where I am, I am home
Rain pours down
I sit in this cave
Watching the droplets fall
Drip Drop
Surrounded by stone, this is my home
Surrounded by trees, I bow on my knees
To please Be

Cave at Pam Bok

In this moment, I am free
I am a savage, a cave woman
An OG human
My earthen home
Perfect timing of course
Everything is perfect
I can see divine timing
Always aligning
what needs to be.
Listening.. tap.. drop..
Waterfalls, my heart calls
And feels One, as the Sun
Peeks through
Blue sky I see now
It’s time for me to be on my way
But if I could I would stay
Always in this communion
I give thanks for this moment TO BE HUMAN.

 

 

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In Passing

by jenna on April 25, 2014

in Poetry & Song

My Poetriography – Summer 2013

The broken hurts. He cries and tries to bring alive the love he never knew.

Would he recognize it when it came or would he shun it just the same.

We all need love to live. We all have love to give.  Why do we put boxes of toxic blame around our hearts?  Why do we throw rocks of shocking shame, profound in starts.

I love his sweet face. I’ll never taste. Another lesson learned, another heart burn, another rough turn, to show my clumsy way home. read more. . .

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Con fuze

9 March 2014

I know him He knows me He sees Ego disagrees Human mind play Attempt control Fall down Surrender Smile Love

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Euphoria AcroDance with Mateo

14 February 2014

I love acrodancing! (acrobatic – dance) Check out this video of a fun performance at a dance fest in Austin.

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6th St Austin Yoga Time Lapse

7 February 2014

Remember you are powerful. Bring about, in the human mind, the radical revolution. The crisis is the crisis in consciousness. -Jiddu Krishnamurti Just a usual day on the 6th st. strip in Austin, Texas. Yoga por vida… does the body good. 10x Time lapse Sun Salutations.  In other words, this one minute vinyasa was actually [...]

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The Scents of Wellness

5 February 2014

I recently discovered an amazing and local holistic apothecary Well Scent, a company that offers skin friendly essential oils ready to apply and heal you. I was especially excited when I realized that this quality line of essential oils is concocted in my lovely city of Austin, where we proudly buy local. Well Scent’s essential [...]

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To be with Her

3 February 2014

In fertile soil Love grows through my toes and into my bones. Where have I gone again? To be with her. In love. In peace. We share stories of all time. Laughing at the simple knowing gone lost, now to be found. The tree is crowned as my queen to which I kneel each day.

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Your Knowing Unknown

19 January 2014

Turning of age… change of pace… time and space One Victory – Victory over War - You win when We All win Go fly your nest find your test rites of passage shake your ashes clear your stashes of shadowy matters Secrets out, you matter you are matter rather vibration condensed divine form of human expression honor [...]

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Let’s get lug.

14 January 2014

You know I love long hugs! Haha. Yes, long, awkward “is she serious” kinda hugs.  And YES I am serious. Hugs are good for you and they only really count when they are at least six seconds long.  Research studies have proven that a 6 second hug is long enough to release healing feel good [...]

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Change little by little, one by one

14 January 2014

  In order to transcend the old ways, old patterns, reactionary responses that don’t serve, and stories that don’t support our highest path… we must first recognize them.  It is hard to observe oneself, so be open to feedback from friends and family. Remember what boyfriends or girlfriends have complained about, what your Mom complained [...]

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Stone Thrown

13 January 2014

Now here at the journaling class. I asked to sit outside, my greatest inspirations flow here with her. Naked sun scorching skin in January Baby butterfly flutters The water utters a continuous fall Like the words streaming through Sitting in a grand seat fit for a king Walls of stone around my throne Falling out [...]

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1min vlogs Jan 3rd – Jan 13th

13 January 2014

I’ve been doing the 1 min vlog every day this month. I have missed only one day, the 11th. I noticed I’ve gotten a little sloppy with the whole “1min” part of it.  The most recent one is 1:41.  I’m really gonna try to do only 1min max the rest of the month.  It’s difficult [...]

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Lights of Prey

9 January 2014

Lights control the stop and go See green glow flow… Oh yes! >>>> Red flashes bring to halt Oh no! No yellow to warn a fellow lover of lost boys without toys Hit the brakes the first fakes second flakes third takes whatever is left of the shit I just shed like vultures clinging to [...]

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Flow over Fone

2 January 2014

1 min vlog day 2. My relationship with my cell phone seems normal to me, but that’s only relative to my own perception. I do not hold on high the necessity to keep up with text and phone calls. Maybe I’m talking about it, because I’m feeling the need to be more responsive.  I can [...]

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Happy New Year New Vlog

1 January 2014

I’ve started a 1 min vlog… 1 min every day for the month of January.   I want to share more thoughts and insights this way, so this 1 min vlog is a good exercise.  I did some vlogs over a year ago, and most were over 15 mins long. TOO LONG!  So, now I [...]

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Eewy Gluewy

1 January 2014

I’m finally back home in my own kitchen and happy to get back to my healthier home diet. I went to Peru on Nov. 14th and away went my sense of healthy eating.  It’s easy to use the vacation diet excuse, but when I’m vacationing for over a month… it’s not cool.  I returned just [...]

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Is it or is it not what I thought

7 October 2013

How many of us find ourselves in a world completely different than we once imagined it to be.  A young, curious, unassuming mind painted pictures, a dream. Then, the “real world” comes and it’s not so real… or maybe it is.  What is real anyway?  My dream of the real world and your dream of [...]

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Flip the Script

27 September 2013

When someone does/says something I disagree with… I let go of attachment to what is right and what is wrong. In a moment, a reactive or divisive response is transmuted into an expansion of my awareness. I accept the reality of the experience and appreciate the opportunity to receive greater clarity of what I choose [...]

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Mirror Magic

23 September 2013

written at Bull Creek Falls Sept. 17 2013 #doseofnature Magic in the mirror. The looking glass is half full. Multiplicity of divine perfection. Still water reflects her beauty in two. Duplicity, divine simplicity. Water our natural source of continuance, our source of life and magic. The one undone, where here I see two skies blue, two [...]

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Falling Leaves

17 September 2013

Written at Campbell’s Hole, September 10 2013 Oh the peace in me. I lay and fall away under the sky as it grows deeper in blue every moment. The fall has arrived, a changing of tides, changing color of leaves upon trees.. and what about me? Fading out of old and coming into new. Another [...]

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Prison Yoga Video

12 September 2013
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Washington Post

10 September 2013

I wanted to share the 2 of “10 changes since 9/11″ that I appreciated being mentioned in this article from Washington Post. 6. Rise (and fall) of U.S. fervor for military action After the 2001 attacks, the George W. Bush administration moved quickly into Afghanistan in the hunt for Osama bin Laden and the fight [...]

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Stay out of Syria – FOX says it all

8 September 2013

The video below is amazing!!! I hope millions of people saw it. I wonder what the general feeling is.. hmm probably worth digging around the news. It looks like an opportunity for Americans to come together with one voice. Catalysts are painful. I feel like I’m in a thriller movie and it’s scary at times [...]

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Today is the Way

6 September 2013

We’ve all had gentleness in our lives that inspires us to be that way, to see that way. But in small doses gets lost in the chaos of He and She and who and why. Dominant. Prominent. Affluent influence teaches us hopeful social goodness, but shows shadows of disbelief leading to grief. Ideas without form, [...]

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Words from my walk

3 September 2013

Oh butterfly beauty. I love you butterfly. We are born with the ability to see then we unsee. To live with passion, we must go from unseeing to seeing again. I love you all over, everywhere. All over everything. When I go on walks I often fall into a hypnotic trance, lost in the beauty [...]

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My Tri-Effecta

29 August 2013

There are three words placed in a triangle on my blog header image.  These words, transformation, integration, and propagation, are oriented this way to represent the cycle of personal and cultural evolution with respect to each individual experience. I’m creating visual representations of different ideas and philosophies of my own pertaining to shifting culture, hearts, [...]

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Personal Mantras

27 August 2013

Self affirmations are very powerful, especially when I fully believe and trust in the words being spoken.  Most of us grew up in an environment, judgemental society, that subconsciously influences the development of negative self talk or negative self affirmations. Negative affirmations have the same effect as positive affirmations, if not greater, on the true [...]

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